2005-02-25

Went rj this morn^^ ponned tutorials to go. Just realised how much i miss rg, the culture there, the mrc bunch, the auto bunch and most of all, all my 413 mates. Maybe it's just me who still has nostalgia all the time, alot of them have adapted quite well into their environment. I could say that after reflecting, a transfer to rj might not be so improbable. As in, everything is so familiar and i'll be back with my bunch. Yet, I'm unsure if I would be accepted by the other people, like suddenly if a stranger joined my class after all the bonds were formed, it wouldn't be likely that he or she would get a great reception >.<

Another thing pulling me back is my CCAs, esp PA. I know that everyone has been telling me to live for myself and not bother about my seniors but I can't help it. It'll be like letting them down, after all the expectations that they have and alot of other stuff. It's like everything starts to fall into place, just not fast enough to hold me in place but enough for me to anticipate, unsure of what I would miss out if I left. Like it anot, another increasing factor has been my class. As in, It's not been that great but just...-nice-. That's just it, it's comfortably -nice-, one that I could live in but I'm unsure as to whether it can truly hold my heart in HC.

Was talking with the rg geppers in HC today at cross and realised that all of us [with the exception of humans pple] were seriously contemplating transfer, some for standard of teachers, some for familiarity and culture, some for friends and some are like : If I'm gonna change sub = change in class = might as well change school. Now the balance is like 6:4, to staying in HC but it constantly changes everytime i see 413 again. Not that I want to sound like a sentimental ass but we really shared a bond that nothing can beat. The way we mix with each other is something that can't be found anywhere else, guess the reason why I'm considering transferring is in order to chase the one thing that i lost =(

Anyway, I can only transfer if the results even turn out decent, so I shall shut up about it till next week. Supposed to have a rehearsal tomorrow till night, hopefully there's time before to go rg and get the headsets >.< On a random note: Cheeky has great taste in music!! Shall go ask for more songs next time =D

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