There are times when i just want to tell you to get out of that trance, to shake out of it and get on with life. Leave it all behind and pretend as if it didn't matter, that you are still who you always were.
But i can't do that, because i know it doesn't work that way, that it'll just make matters worse. You don't want others to worry for you, but it's inevitable that we will, because we care. Then you come and tell me 'never mind about me'. I would want to do it, if you were a stranger. But you aren't. You're a friend, one i've know for at least half my life.
There are times when i really want to say all of the above to you but i can't bring myself to do so, because i just ain't the kind of person to tell you that face to face. I pray every night to God for you to be safe, that he will send down his angels to protect you, that you will find back that happy streak soon. But no matter what i do, it won't help much unless you do something about it yourself. So just take care and God bless.
Sometimes i wish the role reversal had never occured, that you'll still be the one telling me to relax, that i'll be the one in depression, so at least, you won't be going through such crap now. But it has happened, somehow or another it has. As a friend, i didn't sense it and it makes me seem like a failure in this role i've played. Yet all i can do now is just to watch yourself walk that road out and lend a hand when you stumble. So please, just get your stuff sorted out, coz these stuff aren't ever going to stop happening, you can only live with it.
This is to you out there, you know who you are. Sorry if it seemed like a lot of s*** to the others reading this but i had to get it off my chest.
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