Didn't read the instructions properly, so heated lead bob instead of brass bob, of course resulting in it melting and dripping into the bunsen burner -_-" Was thinking, bad enough, until teac said that lead vapour was poisonous, and seeing how the lead had dripped -into- the hole, the bunsen burner probably couldn't be used. Kinda presumed I'ld have to pay for the bunsen burner then. Was then helping to heat some boiling tube, when the guys started playing jokes and threw in m&ms.
Pretty funny initially, until teac said we'll have to clean it out and everyone conveniently went off, so was a little freaked coz it seemed like it would be horribly hard to get out. But praise Lord, the choc just slid out of the tube, so no worries^^ Until I tried to rinse it and it slipped from the tongs and smashed in the sink. Really seemed as though the day looked to get worse and the rain certainly didn't help =s
Dragged my feet to the lab tech's office, just praying that the bunsen burner wasn't too expensive, since I've been broke for the past few weeks. Got worse when I saw my pa teac whom also happens to be a phy teac at the lab. He heard what had happened and described it exactly as what it was, 'stupid'. Don't think I ever felt so condemned for ages... Was just asking God for help, coz nothing really seemed as if it could salvage the situation.
Waited for the lab tech to come back and when he did, he only asked about the boiling tube. When I confirmed I was the guilty culprit, he was like, 'oh, just write test tube, never mind, cheaper' Woah, He really answered my prayers fast man, almost immediately^^ Then I asked him about the bunsen burner, coz he seemed to have forgotten about it. Glory to God, he said that I didn't have to pay for the bunsen burner!! Heh, just couldn't help but being so happy and concious of His grace. Couldn't help but continue giving thanks for all that He has given and for the more to come^^ really amazing =D
Was feeling pretty happy even on the way home, coz saw junior class dance, they're really good, probably stand a chance of performing at campfire tomorrow :D Oh yeah, didn't post about it, but i have TWO junior classes! Heh, they're been really nice and fun, not like what i dreaded they would be [you know, **hs and all =s] Look forward to having fun w/ them, even though the benches are getting a little on the squeezy side >.<
On another note: Char just told me that heid and squish are doing frs with them. Was pretty embarrassed by my first emotion, coz felt sad, like they're finally back together and having fun, but all under the name of rj, and I'm left in hc, unable to be part of them. Felt worse than the o1 night in rj, coz now I know that both things that mattered the most to me in sec school are now lost, that it no longer has me nor needs me. Pretty painful to let go of the whole thing, to know that they will still be great without me, that maybe I didn't matter that much. Stupid i know, to be feeling all of these, coz i really ought to be happy for them, that they get to continue what they always had from before, that they're having the same fun we used to have together. Want so badly to feel happy for them, but can;t help but feel the pangs of pain when I see their backs, running swiftly into that sunset that I wish I had gone to, slowly fading into small specks on the horizon, forever out of my reach.. Just praying that He'll lead me out of these, so that I don't have to walk down that path of darkness that I formerly took, really don't want to pick up the blade again.
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