2007-05-26

'Damn, God, that comment really hurt.' Thought that went through my mind when friend told me something. But thanks for showing me this area that I never knew before, thanks for exposing this thing in me, that I might then bring it before you and let Your grace cover it, transform me into the better person I can be. That I can be a better friend, a better sister, a better testimony for You.

Went for Bible Study today, had such an amazing time. It was after all the last regular BS for now, so it was definitely memorable, though the revelations I got from there were simply, phewh, mind-blowing to say the least^^ Still digesting it even now =p Then again, at BS, means seeing alot of the congregation, also means finally seeing a person after such a long time. As in, knew that it had to occur sometime or another, just... thought I would either be more prepared or stable enough to handle it? Yet, to be simply ignored by someone who played such a crucial part in my walk ...... still hurt, still touched a raw spot in me. Even then, what can I do? Run to Daddy God, to let Him comfort me with His words, to show me that where sin [or in this case, where emotions don't meet the mark]abounds, grace superabounds, to show me a renewed depth of His love and the extent to which it encompasses me.

[edit] Each day I think it gets easier, something seems to make it hearder. But thank God for feelow sisters in Christ, love what one of them said today, that God's calling can never be revoked, so I know that the person will be back even better, even more glorious, even more anointed, and most of all, even more blessed to be a blessing. Thank God for those words, for the reminder that it is still You that carries us.[/edit]

Hide me O Lord, Keep me O Lord,
Safe in the secret place, safe in the secret place~

Keep me Lord, in You, and keep my brothers and sisters too Lord, safe in your fold.


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